Creepin Out of the Shadows of Fear

As I have developed as an artist I have found the hardest thing to be is consistent. Clearly the last post on this blog was in March. SMH. I’m literally in awe of people who have everyday rituals. Since moving to New York the only thing that I do everyday is brush my teeth. Some would say I was lazy but I liked to say I followed the ebbs and flows of life. The truth is it really is easier to just float along with my natural luck than to reach out and take what I want. As I have made moves towards my ultimate goals I have realized it’s not so much laziness that holds me back but fear. Laziness was just the mask of fear and fear was standing in the way of me getting what I want. Why was I so scared to try?  Our brains can be our best friend or worst enemy and sometimes we need to remind ourselves of the potential inside of us. When you strip away the fear laziness has nothing to rest on. Here are 7 ways to get out of the shadow of apathy and anxiety and back into a path of consistent greatness.


Do something daring (different)

 What most people don’t realize is that if you have to you will. We hate to be embarrassed. I find when I’m really in a rut I put myself in a position I can’t back out of. Sometimes we have to do something different, to gain a small victory, to get back to being consistent. I recently took a Beyonce dance class, and as evident from the video above, I am no Beyonce nor dancer. Can you spot me? (Braids, offbeat, left) I had fun all the same and just putting myself out there brightened my spirits.

Eat Right!

I have to say this because it’s a food blog but really, sometimes laziness is caused by physical reasons. If you don’t properly nourish your body why would it want to run correctly? I skip breakfast so much it’s shameful. Cars don’t function without gas. Pay attention to how your body reacts to everything you consume. I kind of knew I had a lot of food sensitivities but it wasn’t until my first colonic (just wait for that post) that I understood just how much I was treating my body like a toxic waste land.

Go outside

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People, especially us living in huge cities, forget we are part of a grand beautiful world. Try to get away to place where you notice the smell of the air, green of the trees, and great blue sky. Take it all in.

Listen to music

Become aware of the noise around you. Too much noise clutters. Too much silence makes you think too much. Haven’t heard one of your favorite songs in a while? Play in on blast. My roommates can definitely tell when I’m not feeling so great Mariah Carey Daydream all day. For an extrovert like me nothing gives me more life than singing too loud with my friends.

Talk to someone else


If you are really feeling down it may be time to reach out to someone. It could be a family member or friend or I am a strong promoter of a total stranger (professional). Don’t go spouting your sorrows to the person sitting next to you on the train or social media.  It’s really important to be aware of your mental health and accept your feelings so you can figure out what to do with them. Even though sometimes there’s nothing to do but feel. Self-awareness is absolutely a key tool to success. If a therapist, hypnotherapist, psychic helps you gain that understanding no judgment here. I’ve actually done it all.


I know you are thinking that is the last thing you want to do when you feel lazy but you can’t beat science on this one. Studies show exercise can release dopamine, the chemical that plays a role in happiness. Just shake your body around if you feel like you have no time, the movement releases stress and anxiety. I couldn’t help but smile when I made the clip above.

Be aware of your words

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Speak your reality into existence. These past few months I have made it a point to stop using the word hard or talk myself out of doing something. Those who have been in my room have seen my post-its with inspirational quotes. I also give myself pep talks in the morning. Often times the time you spend giving yourself reasons of why you can’t do something you could have been half way done.  You can’t be a ray of sunshine if your raining down negative words! Success or nothing less is my current motto!


I have made a lot of progress over these past few months, but the best is yet to come. Get ready for Chef in the City as Chefleen takes over the world! Ha. Many thanks to all the people who have continued to support in my journey. I hope my words will help someone on their own jaunt we call life. As always give yourself plenty of grace to make mistakes. Be you, be great.

Ps. Can you tell I have a new obsession with the app Boomerang?



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my life has been a very interesting journey thus far. in my quarter century crisis im and not certain of much except that i love cooking and entertaining, and pleasing people is my passion. (wait that sounded a little funny) i am goofy eccentric, and love to laugh, in fact i often laugh at the most inappropriate times. i place high value in honesty and working hard. i don’t really believe in faking it until you make it, without some base knowledge or some sort of depth to your cause. i believe in making mistakes and trying everything once as long as you bring yourself no harm and no harm to others. i am a new age hippy, my words to live by are freedom, serenity, and love. i look for signs of the world and listen. i do judge, anyone who says they do not is a liar, but i use my judgements against you to reflect back on me to see how i can better myself. i hate constraints of our society, including grammar, punctuation, and recipes. i think fast except when it comes to numbers. the culinary world has always been and shall be my safe haven and outlet. i want to inspire, teach, and learn.

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